Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Get some popcorn folks, it's gonna be a long one.

I'm pretty much opposed to starting blogs with apologies about how long it's been since I've posted and listing reasons why I haven't blogged in a while. So I'm not going to do that. I'll just catch you up on my life and you can guess which parts prevented me from blogging.

I finished my first semester of my program (1 down 4 to go!). I've never felt so excited to learn and so MOTIVATED to learn in my entire life. I guess that's what interesting well taught content can do for you right? I passed all my classes with A's (except math...stupid b+!) and even did pretty good on my finals. But I gotta say, they took up a LARGE amount of my time the last week of November and the first two weeks of December. I barely had time to shower. I actually didn't buy groceries the last month of school, so you can see why I didn't have time to blog.

In other news, I just realized I haven't properly celebrated the fact that I will never have to take Math EVER AGAIN! So please oblige me a second or two....YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

Anyway, we also had Christmas come upon us and I was at my mom's house for a good 4 days. I couldn't drag myself away from the festivities long enough to blog about anything. But I got some cool stuff for Christmas. My mom got me a really nice point and shoot camera, which I asked for because as much as I love Reid, he's kind of bulky and if I want to take a small purse somewhere (or no purse at all) I can't just put him in a tiny purse or shove him in my pocket. I also got a oil change and a tire rotation from my dad, not exactly the stuff of Christmas, but I really needed it. A TARDIS cookie jar from my brother, a nifty skirt from my sister, a Polaroid camera from a close family friend, a cute thermal top from Lisa, and a pair of ADORABLE gloves and a Justin Bieber calendar from Rachel. I also got some fun trinkets and knicknacks from my grandma tuff and some dinero from my grandparents. All in all it was a really great holiday spent with people I love.

Between finals and Christmas I also suffered some pretty bad heartache. I think I put off writing about it so long because I was worried I'd write unkind and untrue things in my post breakup haze. I bear no ill will, the reasons (which I won't discuss here) that ended our relationship were pretty legit reasons and now looking back I can see that it could have been much worse. There were pitfalls that would inevitably be down the road that one NEVER see coming in a happy glow of being in love. Those pitfalls probably would have destroyed any respect or civility we would have had for each other and that would make for a very difficult time at school, for the both of us.

It was hard to know where to go from there with so many plans and so many hopes being crushed, but now, in the aftermath my heart still aches, but most of the major cracks, bumps and bruises have been sealed up or healed. I no longer spontaneously tear up when I see things that remind me of what I had, I'm finding the magic that can come from changing plans. I've found a quote that I love "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us"-Joseph Campbell. It's kind of become my mantra.

Finding a new path on your own is such a painful yet beautiful experience. Frankly, it's an experience that I wouldn't miss for the world. So on to bigger and better things. I'm looking forward to learning more in 2011, looking forward to meeting new people and getting new opportunities everyday.

So I'll leave you with this

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Big Thanksgiving Post (for actual Thanksgiving!)


My family. Without them...I would seriously be alone. I'd probably be sane...But I'd be alone!

Sadly Jeff didn't make it into this picture.

Rachel and Lisa-I know I gush about them all the time, but they are really the best friends a girl could ask for. It's so interesting to hear other people talk about their roommates. I actually find myself saying "I forget you don't have roommates like I do.

School School School. Never thought that this would EVER end up on my thankful list, but it is this year. I'm fortunate to be going to school with a GREAT group of people and be taught by some AMAZING teachers.

Not really my school people but it's still a cool picture

These three!

My little TARDIS that gets me from point a to point b and never complains!

Again, not a picture of my girl, but pretty dang close. All this one needs is a big dent!

and lastly...him

He's quickly becoming my best friend, my confidant, and everything a boyfriend should be. He's awesome.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Oh Hey...It's sunday Again

Sorry the posts have been pretty lame the last few weeks. Between juggling a job, full time school, and a boyfriend there isn't much else that can occupy my mind. But here are the things I was thankful for from Wednesday on.

Getting The Hunger Games from Wayne
Seeing my mommy and sleeping in an uber soft hotel bed
Harry Potter with my Handsome boy (an amazing movie!), and some great friends! Plus I found my AMAZING dress for the Melanie's Wedding! And seeing Cat's exhibit!
Double feature night at the Cemetery: Mortal Combat and Street Fighter. Plus the first REAL snow fall in the valley.
Coming home smelling like Paul and good windshield wipers and tires

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Remember when I said that I would be blogging my thankful things on Sundays? Yeah....I didn't. Two days late is better than never!
Early morning movie watching with my roommates, plus snuggling, and first kisses.
Toy Story 3 and stolen boyfriend sweatshirts.
Cafe Rio Tuesdays, Long goodnight conversations, Acing my Med Term test, and Fire truck wakeup calls
Being honest
The promise of a Christmas Present!
Being told that I will someday be Cat Palmer's protege by Cat herself. I love that woman!
Calling dibs on a BEAUTIFUL piece of art before anyone else has even seen the exhibit!
Homemade Pot pies and Doctor Who
Conversations about the future over veggie burritos and shopping trips with my Handsome Boy.
The realization that I'm done studying Neuro for the rest of the semester!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

7 days of Thankful

Each Sunday in November (and maybe longer) I'm going to post the 7 things I'm grateful for!

Spending time with my great family
People who donate their bodies to make it so other people can make something of themselves in the Medical Field
Chicken Noodle soup, a comfy bed, and Sudafed
Taking time to be silent and try and see a bigger picture
Understanding teachers who listen to what I have to say and plans for the Christmas season, plus an amazing bishop with an amazing house.
Payday and coworkers who challenge and teach me. Plus black hair dye that makes me look like Snow White.
Beating the traffic from the U football game, my cozy USC sweatshirt to keep away the cold

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Isn't life funny?

I was glancing over my blog and I read back through my post on what past relationships can teach you. It's amazing that I was talking about the Lord preparing me for someone because all of the sudden, someone has come into my life. I've never really understood the quote "We make plans and God laughs". That was until I had Paul fall into my life. Okay fall isn't really the word I'm looking for because I knew and hung out with Paul a full month before we started dating. But let me back up and explain why Paul coming into my life was such a surprise.

When I started school this September I had made a two part pact with myself:
1) No Boys till graduation
2) Suppressing my need to make a million friends at school.

I wanted to REALLY focus on school and get good grades. I needed to be successful in school (and I promise at some point I will talk about how amazing school is!) But I felt like I needed to make a change in my constant need for a social life. Granted I ended up making some really good friends for a study group, but luckily they are good friends who encourage me to work hard and keep my grades up

What I wasn't expecting was Paul. It started out so simple, just study friends. Then my roommates and I planned a triple date to a haunted house, and since I really didn't have very many great single guys in my life I figured "What the heck? Paul is a cool kid and we'll have a great time." I had no idea what I was in for.

Paul and I have been dating for a month and I already feel so....different. I mentioned in my post how I've been in love twice and really, just being with Paul makes those two "loves" completley null and void. I mean don't misunderstand me here, I'm not saying Paul is the one, or that I'm in love with him. We're just taking it a day at a time, but what we have already been in this a month is so much...more than I ever thought possible. Love songs on the radio sound different to me. Chick flicks have a whole different meaning. I can't even think of a way to put it. Our relationship is uncomplicated, it's fun, it's romantic, it's sweet. It's everything any girl really wants in a relationship.

I look back at the past relationships I've experienced and they were all full of doubt and frustration and confusion and there is NONE of that when it comes to Paul and I. I can mention things about having an upset stomach and the need to fart and he just laughs and tells me a story about how his mom once ate fat free pringles and farted up a storm. He wants to meet my family, he wants me to meet his family. He says goodnight to me every night. He just lets me be me. I don't think I've ever been so free in a relationship before. He and I disagree on A LOT of things but it never bugs us because we just realize that we compliment each other.

He doesn't mind I ADORE bacon (he's a vegetarian) or that I love weird decorations and hate decorating the Christmas tree. I don't mind that he's a better cook than I am and enjoys reading far more than conversation sometimes. It

I'm happy and I'm reminded of a post my dear, dear Mandi made once on her blog. It shall be the QOTD. She wrote it about me and it something I fondly remember nearly every day. I'm paraphrasing, I can't remember it all and she's deleted the post from her blog.
"I don't know who he is, but I promise he will be amazing. I don't know what the future holds for you, but knowing will be an adventure."

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Troubled Heart

I have found myself very troubled lately. It's actually something that has been plaguing me for quite some time. For the most part, I've kept it on the down low for the sake of not starting any arguments with anyone (I am a pacifist after all). But I feel now, after all this time, I should say something.

I support Gay Marriage.

I know that in being a member of the LDS church, this contradicts the church. But I just can't seem to see how alienating a population of the world is Christlike. I firmly believe in the principles and beliefs of the church, and I apply as much obedience to the commandments as I can (I'm not perfect, and guess what reader? neither are you). But I can't and refuse to agree with the church on this.

This is going to anger some of you readers probably, but I don't believe being gay is a choice. I believe you are what you are, and that's the way God made you. I know, I know in the bible it says homosexuality is a sin. I know! But sometimes, things don't make sense and everything is a fiber on the greater fabric that is believing in God. I think that there are some things in this world that I will never understand and the whole choosing/not choosing to be gay is one of them.

I understand that in saying that, some of you will think I'm rationalizing something away, but it's how I feel and trying to fight me on how I feel will get you nowhere. This isn't a post where I'm looking to fight with anyone or even engage in a debate. This is a post for me to say what I feel.

The way I've lived my life since I started making decisions for my own life and my own beliefs has always been and will always be to treat everyone in a Christlike manner. Don't get me wrong, I don't ALWAYS adhere to that, there are times I'm a great big jerk, in fact in one particular instance I'm ALWAYS a jerk. I'm really mean about a crazy girl in my school program, and I know I should work on it. But I feel that overall, I try to look at everyone with Christlike eyes.

I try to see everyone for the person that God created them as and find a reason why they are in my life. I love everyone for who they are and what they do for me and how they affect me, not because of their life choices. Just because I don't agree with their life choices doesn't mean that I have the right to be mean/cruel/unfair/rude/disrespectful to them. I don't have the right to make any sort of comment or judgment on their lives just as I would hope that they won't make judgments or comments on my life. Understand this though, I'm not an idle sitter by-er (oh hello Grammar, I forgot you existed!) If someone is downing something I believe in, you better believe I put them in their place.

In a perfect world, people would look at everyone the way Christ looks at the whole world and recognize we are all people and we are all children of God and we are all connected. My only consolation is that the people who treat others UnChristlike will get their retribution. God will punish those who didn't treat others with a Christlike love and hurt and were cruel to those they refused to love.

The way I see it, everyone has their demons. Everyone has something in their life that they are ashamed of. So if you are one of those people who don't have anything to be ashamed of or any demons, well then pick up your stone and you can throw it at me for supporting the gays. I'll stand firm where I am.
Batman Out.

QOTD "I know who is in charge up there, I don't know what is going to happen, but I'm pretty sure EVERYONE will be surprised." -Robert Kirby.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

You are Not a Snowflake.

I realize that I talk a lot about the frustrations of my dating life here, but I never talk about what I learn from them. I'm a firm believer that everything is a lesson in one way or another and I realize now that in the past 6 months, I haven't been looking for what I've been learning.

Let me backtrack just a little bit, I've gotten back in to meditation since we tried it in my Psych class a few weeks ago. Generally my past meditations have been a solo journey, but Monica (my teacher) took us all in a whole different direction where we ended up surrounded by whatever people our subconscious decided to put in our path. I won't go into details (they are FAR too personal and would take too long to explain) but through my sessions of meditation, I've found the people that are appearing to me keep telling me the same thing. What have you learned.

After speaking with a beloved young friend who is fresh off his first college heartbreak I gave him the advice to think of every relationship as a lesson. What has that heartbreak taught you. What did that girl/boy teach you about what you want? What have you learned about yourself. So much can be learned from a broken heart.

I've had my fair share of heartbreak since I jumped into the dating scene 8 years ago at the tender age of 16. I've spent many a night crying myself to sleep. Many night pleading with the Lord to send me a "good one". There have also been nights where I've told the Lord I wasn't talking to him because once again he put someone in my life that hurt me. Luckily the Lord loves me and understands why I was mad.

I've been in love exactly 2 times. Both times were extremely painful when they ended and I thought my whole world was over. But I got up the next day and had to keep living. I've had many times since where I thought I was in love when really it was just desperation, lust, or wishful thinking. But in my 8 years of boy chasing (okay, okay, it's been since like Kindergarten, but OFFICIALLY it's been 8)I've learned a thing or two. I would never call myself a dating guru, or even go so far as to say that I'm done learning.

As much as I dislike Rascal Flatts, they have a point when it comes to learning from your dating life. In the song "Bless The Broken Road" there are a few lyrics that I think apply pretty well to what I've realized when it comes to heartbreak.

"I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true"

I'm starting to realize that all the pain I've felt is preparing me for my future husband. It may be in this life or the next I get him, but order to deal with me, he's got to be a pretty FANTASTIC man. I know that whomever He puts in my path will be what I need. He won't be perfect and neither will I, but together we will work our best at being what the other person needs.

I won't go in to a deep list of things that I myself have learned, but I will share a few humorous/heart-warming things I have learned.

-(for my beloved young friend) When you look back through your life and think of the people you have had feelings for, about 75 percent of them you are going to say to yourself "What the crap was I thinking?" I promise.
-When you are at the point you think you might love someone, wait a week before blurting it out. You can and will be amazed at how quickly things can change in a week.
-Always give everyone you date the benefit of the doubt. I firmly believe in the "At least 2 dates" rule. Unless it's GLARINGLY obvious (public flatulence, proposal on the first date, affinities for fungi, or a deep seated dislike of something you deeply believe in(video games don't count!)) you should at least go on two dates. Everyone does dumb things on their first dates because everyone is always nervous.
-No texting on a first date. It's so rude.
-Kissing on the first date isn't necessarily a no no, but the reasoning why you are kissing on a first date should be deeply thought out. If it's to fulfill a physical need, go inside and kiss the mirror. If it's to connect romantically, then go right ahead.
-Let the guys make the move, they are better wired for it. On the other hand, if it's the third date and he hasn't made any physical contact we might have a shy guy on loose. Go ahead and make the move. Oh and gentleman....MAKE THE MOVE.
-Be wise enough not to be reckless, but brave enough to take great risks. Because really, faint heart never won fair lady.
-You have to love your whole self before you can give away a part of you to someone else.
-Being brave is really scary. Especially when it's your heart that you are putting out there.
-Everyone has been deeply hurt by someone they love. You are not a snowflake in this matter. Cutting yourself off from other people only deepens your hurt. Stop making yourself into a snowflake. It's annoying and a really bad excuse.
-Everyone has a crazy ex, don't hold that against them.
-Being a long term masochist is overrated. No one should ever be 100 percent miserable in a relationship. It's got to hurt a little bit every once in a while because people aren't perfect, but if it hurts all the time. IT'S NOT WORTH IT.

In conclusion, life is nothing without other people. Loving someone else is hard work. But learning what you need to learn from a heartbreak is just as hard.

Thank you I'm done turning myself into a "Chicken Soup for the Soul" book.
Batman out!

Quote of the day: "To love someone else is to see the face of God"-Victor Hugo.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The Lisa and Rachel Show

Today I'm going to switch gears from talking about me constantly and MY problems and MY problems with other people to talking about two people in my life who are AWESOME. Yes fine readers, you finally get to meet Rachel and Lisa my roommates!

This is Rachel, she's a spy.

Marital Status: Single, and ready to mingle
Sign: Pisces
Ethnicity: Albino
Likes: Violence, Mismatching her clothes, Tabbi (her turtle) movies with sad endings, Television shows on USA, Matt Smith's doctor, indie music, ice cream, Cafe Rio, boys with dark hair and dark eyes, shoes, and sleepy time.
Personality Type: INFP
Dislikes: Cooking, getting up early, romantic comedies, Barack Obama, Kirsten Dunst, talking to people on the phone, school, country music, healthy food,
Nicknames: Rachedoo, Miss Bagel, Rach, Remy, Rowan, Satan Spawn

Rach and I have been roommates for a year now. She's amazing. Don't get me wrong, she's not perfect, but who is. She's funny and we have 15000 inside joke (you think I'm kidding but we really do) We have a habit of taking funny situations and remembering them later and turning them into stupid jokes. She's extremely patient with my mood swings and my flightiness. We also make a lot of inappropriate sex jokes including how if we ever met some of the celebrities we love we'd just immediatly start taking off our clothes. For the most part with the two of us...the fun never stops.

This is Lisa, she's her own Anime show.

Marital Status: Pretty much engaged, sorry boys.
Sign: Virgo
Ethnicity: 1/2 Japanese 1/2 American
Likes: Old timey stuff, vintage looking clothing, cameos, EXTREME tea parties, BBC Miniseries, Jane Austen, Cooking, Organizing, party planning, books, ikea, target, Disney movies, and Totoro (among other cool Japanese cartoons)
Personality Type: ESFJ
Dislikes: School, diving underwater, ear piercing, money, confrontation, and paperwork
Nicknames: Parks, Risa-Chan, Lisa-Chan, Silly/Pretty Girl, Armitstead

Lisa has only been my roommate since about April where we shared a TERRIBLE house with Rachel and one other roommate (long, long, LONG story). When we moved out of that place, she and I shared a room/closet/bathroom. We experienced each others nighttime idiosyncrasies (she talks in her sleep, I snore). We also share of love of old stuff and romantic cheesy comedies.

They are both my best friends for completely different reasons and in different ways, but I love them. Not to mention they should both get medals of honor for dealing with this gal:

This is the three of us at Lisa's recent Nerd themed party (notice we're all wearing red shoes!)

Quote of the Day:
"When God closes a door, somewhere he always opens a window" Julie Andrews as Maria "Sound of Music"

Monday, August 30, 2010

Small Rant List

I've got a few thing I need to rant about.

-Okay, I'm sorry if you are a mom going back to school but like 85 percent of you 40 somethings are SO ANNOYING. Seriously. I'm glad you are going back to school and making something of your life, but CALM THE EFF DOWN. If you miss something important a teacher says, don't put the e brake on the class and demand the teacher repeat it. Stop telling us all how long it's been since you've been in school, WE KNOW okay?

-I am a huge proponent of wearing PJ's as much as possible, but wearing them in public is getting old. You look like trailer trash. I will allow it if it's before 6 in the morning and you brought clothes with you to change. But staying in them until noon while you are at school looks SO TACKY. It's not that hard to throw on some jeans and a t-shirt no matter how early it is. You don't have to look amazingly poised and beautiful or anything, but especially at a school like mine (where you are getting intense career training, basically like you are working at the school) you should wear normal clothes. I don't even care if you wear track pants and a t-shirt but when your clothes are obviously made for sleeping in make you look like an idiot.

-People who don't understand that you are making a joke, especially if it's HILARIOUS and they get offended.

-Crazy students (see also moms at school). Case in point: Today I had both anatomy lecture and lab one right after the other. We covered essentially EXACTLY THE SAME THINGS in both classes like....literally the same thing. I mean our professor kept saying "This is exactly what you just learned in lecture" and there was this girl going ape crazy with her highlighters and pencils constantly changing colors and flamboyantly writing notes. She was writing and highlighting almost down to the sentence the same things she had looked at an hour before. It was extremely distracting for the rest of us trying to listen to our professor speak.

-Math teachers who write illegibly. The numbers in the equations look GREAT, and the you write a word and suddenly you look like a serial killer. If you are teaching you should have nice handwriting. No exceptions.

Thank you. End of Rant session.
Go Team!

Friday, August 27, 2010

I'm sorry

Dear Readers-
I'm sorry I've been so absent from my blog. If you look at my posting dashboard, you'll see I've tried to start about 10 blogs and each one has a line or two and then I just couldn't find the pull to finish it. Yeah, I'm lazy. I've also been dealing with some down in the dumps lately. It's about 50 percent boy related, 25 percent school anxiety, and 25 percent hormones.

Anyway, I'm once again finding myself lacking creativity for creating anything tonight. I did play my guitar for about an hour today! But when it comes to writing it comes and goes with the wind. Instead of my words I'm going to reprint a song from Brand New Eyes by Paramore. I bought it about 3 days ago and I seriously can't stop listening to the music.

I find it such a magical moment when you hear a song for the first time and it explains EXACTLY how you are feeling at that exact second. That's what happened with me an "All I Wanted". Yes this is directed at a specific boy. I might wax annoyed about him in the future. Here it be. At the bottom of the lyrics I also am putting a video with the actual song so you can get both a visual and an auditory feel for it.

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
When the world treats you way too fairly
It's a shame i'm a dream

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
And wake up early to black and white re-runs?
That escaped from the mouth


All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Missing Missing

I feel like the energy spent in missing something doesn't really ever hit you until you bring it back into your life. Even if it's only for a minute, or a night. It's a painful hit into your stomach when you realize how much you missed that person place or thing.

Tonight I experienced that. It burns it's so painful to miss what I had tonight...As much as I'm loving life in Sandy, I miss my more sociable life in West Valley. I was well established in my church there with friends who were game to do anything and everything. I have no friends here in Sandy except for my roommates. I had a creative outlet there, and there isn't much time for me to have any kind of creative outlet. I work so much more than back when I lived in West Valley. I had adventures, I had a life back there.

Tonight I ventured to the Empress to go to workshop with my beloved Jesters. I was sadly disappointed because the once strong Jesters are no more. The Empress looks different (I'm actually not a huge fan of the new paint job) I guess what I'm saying that I don't like change when it's blatantly made itself known in front of me. Even driving down 3500 south made me tear up a little. I drove down that road more times than I care to count, whether it be to the Empress, to Ashley's, the mall, etc.

I'm aware that in little less than two weeks, I won't even have time to blink, much less have a social life, but I miss that facet of my life. I miss meeting people, learning their stories, and finding things I have in common with them. I miss having people.

Anyway, I'm in a grumpy sad mood and I'm listening to sad music so yeah.

Look forward to a Star Wars post coming soon!

Quote of the Day:
I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night. ~Bill Watterson, Calvin & Hobbes

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Wizard Rock!

Lauren and Matt of Armored Bearcub

Kristina and Luke of ALL CAPS

So this summer I had the opportunity to see my first wizard rock show! I was actually able to see not one, but TWO shows. First up was seeing the tour called ROFLCOPTOUR which featured such bands a The Moaning Myrtles, The Whomping Willows, The Parselmouths, Armored Bearcub, and ALL CAPS.

I guess before I start telling you about the concerts, I should tell you what wizard rock is. It's music that is based on the book Harry Potter. The thing about wizard rock isn't so much about the actual music, it's more about the community. It's this group of loving, supportive, and amazing people who all share a love of a young wizard who saved the world. It spans the entire globe and all 50 states. It's brought forth an amazing charity organization called The Harry Potter Alliance who through this mutual love has helped bring awareness of the genocide in Darfur, brought books to citys and towns that have lost their libraries, and sent FIVE planes full of supplies to Haiti after the earthquake.

It's this great movement to making the world better by being kind, nice, and showing love. After all it was Dumbledore who said "The weapon we have is love". It's something that the whole of the wizard rock movement has adapted to their lives and it's something I truly believe in too.

Anyway, the first concert I went to was in Cody, WY. A VERY long drive away from where I live. My roommate Lisa and I drove 8 long hours to get to a show that was AMAZING. I met people who's music I've been following for about 3 years now.

It was an eventful trip. Driving home Lisa and I got hit by a deer (this is Wyoming after all) and had to stay in a sort of gross hotel in Riverton, WY. Yeah, it happened and it was crazy. It was amazing to meet Kristina and Lauren.

My second show was -Luckily- this time in Salt Lake City and it the headliner was the first Wizard Rock band I ever heard The Remus Lupins. It was an amazing show. This tour was called The Next Great Adventour. The bands playing at this one were The Remus Lupins, Skyway Flyer, and Gred and Forge. I had never heard anything by Gred and Forge previously but I LOVE them, well actually Jarrod. He's the only actual member of the band. The most amazing thing though was Alex knew who I was. I was touched that he would remember me in the sea of people who follow him and that he's undoubtedly met. I think when I mentioned that I used to sign all of the post I would put on his myspace as "Your biggest fan in Utah" helped, but it was still sweet he remembered me.

All in all it was so much fun to get to see them play live. I don't know when I'll have time again to see them. But I was glad it happened. Wizard rock is love. Love is all powerful.

Meeting all the Wizard Rock Boys!

Quote of The Day
"California dorks
We’re unforgettable
Disneyland like
Four times a week
Sunkist soda pop
and Flux Capacitors
Ohohohohoh Oh Ohohohohohoh"
-California Dorks by Jason Munday

Monday, July 5, 2010


WOW, did you just see that tumbleweed pass by? It has been a long while since I've been on here writing about my boring everyday life in a way that makes you guys laugh!

But I am back with a new resolve to better document my life on here. Today won't be a day of angry open letters or long involved rant sessions. It's a list of funny anecdotes/updates. Truth be told, I'd like to write a long rant because I'm in a TERRIBLE mood which probably is in part my own fault, but partly due to other people. A rant would be good, but I would probably say some things I regret, so I won't. So you get a haphazardly thrown together list of funny stories and updates.

Funny Story #1

This last week Lisa (my roommate, more on her later) and I drove 8 hours to see a wizard rock band show in Cody, WY. Yes, I'm aware of how strange that sounds, but it was an adventure and I love me some adventure. Lisa was game for the long drive and so we road tripped it. I hate long car rides, but I enjoyed this because Lisa and I listened to music, talked about life, and I read to her out loud from a Norah Roberts book. Yes, a Norah Roberts book. Make all the jokes you want, but IT WAS FUN! The not so fun part was that while we were driving home from the concert (the same day) we had a deer hit us about 10 o clock at night. We ended up staying a kind of gross motel and then driving our sticky stinky selves home with a broken windshield and a driver side door that wouldn't open. The concert itself was amazing and I got to meet some people I've been wanting to meet for some 3 years now. It was a memory I'll have for a long time that I will revisit when I'm feeling sad. I also uttered a sentence that I thought would never fall from my lips "I'm glad to be back in Utah...where everything makes sense."

Update #1
I'm finally back at work with full privileges now that my back is healed!! Oh you didn't hear? I hurt my back 2 weeks ago. Nothing bad of course, just a muscle strain. It was bad enough, however, that was enough to send me to the ER, and then take me off of work for two weeks. I was so bored out of my mind that I ended up doing crazy things/dressing in crazy clothes to stave off the boredom (see funny story #1).

Update #2
I am also finally in my permanent apartment, at least for the next 6 months (that's how long our lease is). I plan to probably stay there longer, so long as everything is still working out with my roommates. I'm hoping to stay there for the entirety of my school career (May 2012). It's pretty great to not be living out of boxes, to put stuff on the walls, and to know (relatively) where everything I own is. I also picked up another roommate named Lisa (see funny story #1) who is pretty freaking awesome. We have a ton in common and I feel like she's one of my best friends already! Rachel is awesome, as usual. And the three of us are having a great time in our new place. I don't know how they put up with me some times.

Cool Story #1
I got to spend 2 really great days with my photography idol, Cat Palmer and I gotta tell you, that woman is an amazing person. She is so confident, so cool, so personable. She made my self esteem go right through the roof with her amazing attitude. I had gone on a date the night before our first day together (it hadn't gone so well) and normally I would have been bummed, but she just assured me that I would someday find the right guy. And if I didn't? I'd be just fine. Seeing her artwork gave me a new found motivation to create my own art. It was an amazing blessing to be with her, to realize that no matter how I look, I am of worth. She makes everything look so beautiful, you can't help but feel 100 times better spending time with her.

Funny Story #2
The cruise was AMZAZING and I had a great time turning 24 in Mexico. The surf lesson was one of the best ideas I've ever had. I was seriously tempted to just stay in Mexico and surf the rest of my life away with the whole Costa Azul family. They didn't make it easy for me to go back to the ship. They were all so cool. A whole family running a buisness together and a buisness that involved being at the beach every day? Count me in! Zip lining was also really really fun, and our two guides kept us laughing the whole time. We also took belly dancing lessons and I went ice skating. All in all it was an extremley worthwhile trip!

I'm not going to talk about my dating life at present (it's a large portion of why I'm in such a bad mood today) but know there might be a post in the future about it.

Cool Story #2
Lisa's boyfriend Austin brought us all three seasons of Avatar The Last Airbender. We immediately feel deeply in love with the show. It's funny, serious, lovely, and inteligent all at the same time. Because of that, I got really excited that the movie was coming out. I was very disapointed in how TERRIBLE the movie was. I hope that should they make a second movie, that they kick M. Night Shamalalmalaming out on his bad movie making ass.

Anyway, that is all, I'm pretty much done talking about myself, but I promise, I won't go that long again without updating.

"I believe in the idea of the rainbow. And I've spent my entire life trying to get over it." Judy Garland

Friday, April 23, 2010

Tie your shoe!

So as many of you have noticed/mentioned to me, I had to give up BEDA. Because of the move and finding myself without internet for about a week, I realized other things were more important.

But it's a slow Friday afternoon and I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open so here is a random list I've been making in my head of things to mention. Have you noticed yet how much I like making lists? I really really do if you haven't noticed. Weird.

~ Today I was walking down a hallway when one of the patients said to me "Stop right there, young lady" I turned around preparing for the worst when she bent down, and tied my shoe. It was one of the weirdest moments of my life.
~ Despite (or maybe because of) the rainy, cold weather today, my hair is at it's most fantastic, go figure. In other news, I pulled my hair into a miniscule ponytail last night. YAY!
~Yesterday I went with my roommies on a trip to Costco and bought these DELISH El Pollo Loco bowls. Yum diddily, I brought one to work today for lunch!
~There is a jewlery sale going on down in the main part of the hospital and I really want to go buy something from it. Curses, why do I have to be poor!!!!!!!!
~It's REALLY cold in here, I'm gonna go glance at the jewlery and get out of here (sans debit card so I can't buy anything!)

Dag, yo!

Monday, April 12, 2010


So today we had to take down our quote board and since we aren't taking it with us I've reprinted our quotes for posterity. Most of these won't make any sense to anyone beside me and Rachel.

-"We need the smallest west pastable" Brittany
-"Oh shut up cup o' noodles" Rachel
-"Shirts are coming off, we are in buisness!" Brittany
-"Good job sweatshirt" Rachel
-"I made you a burger with salsa LOVE ME!!!!" Brittany
-"Oh, it looks like Christmas is fighting" Rachel
-"Why are we laughing, we should have been depressed for this" Brittany
-"No candy coated shit for you!" Rachel
-"Rachel I want to make sex to you" Brittany impersonating Michael Westen

Ha, we are funny.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Fun Memories

So since I've been cleaning and moving things, I've found some really fun memories I'm going to list them here.

-The dye spot on the wall where Rachel and I accidentally got hair dye from the first weekend she live here.
-The Skulls that moved in during October and have stayed wearing various funny looking hats. They curently have mustaches and sombreros counting down until we go to Cabo.
-The hooks left stuck to the celing in the living room where I once night decided to build a sheet fort.
-The large piece of fake fur and leftover fabric from my Rainbow Brite Halloween costume that was held entirely together with hot glue.
-3 Different program from church that Rachel and I have drawn various stupid things on when I was so bored at church.
-The last remaining sticker given to me by Mark Hoppus at the Blink-182 concert
-The Ripped pants from the fateful last boat ride at Lake Powell Spring Break 09
-The Nerdfighterlike T-Shirt
-The sand encrusted high heels and flip flops from my second shoot with Ashely and Rachel
-My black slides that I never cleaned the mud off of from running around a park in West valley on the 4th of July with Ashley and Chris
-My Rigby Idaho t-shirt
-Notes written back and forth between me and various people during sacrament meeting
-My old and new Jesters Shirts and my gold shoes
-The two VERY obvious stains on the living room carpet from Rachel's makeup spilling and I clumsily spilling my diet coke
-The mice traps from the battle with Gus Gus (not that I kep them, I actually threw them away the other day)
-The Makeout Chair

It's been a fun run here at the Water Temple, and part of me is really sad to move away from all the fun memories, but I'm glad to be opening a new chapter in my life.
Boxes packed: 6
Bags of Garbage: 2
Days Till Move: 2

Quote of The Day:
"Here is the church
Here is the steeple
We sure are cute
For two ugly people"
The Moldy Peaches "Anyone Else But You"

Wednesday, April 7, 2010


I'm not really in a mood to blog about funny stories or talk about moving. Tonight I announced that I'm going to be going on extended leave from Jesters. It was pretty emotional thing for me. That team has become such an amazing thing in my life and I'm really sad to leave it.

It's bittersweet because I knew I was going to quit come August for school, but all of this moving has happened in such a whirlwind of a week that I hadn't really prepared to quit.

As I've been packing I've been coming across little things that I've picked up from the last year and a half of living here. It's made me a little nostalgic for all the fun life defining moments that have happened to me. I mean I've become an adult in this house basically.

Anyway, I'm not going to say much more because it's making me too sad.
Boxes Packed: 4
Bags of Garbage: 1
Days Till Move: 4
Quote of The Day: “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." Christopher Robin to Pooh

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Weird Thoughts

So as most of you know, I work in a hospital. There is something magical about a hospital that sort of make me think of REALLY weird things. I don't know how these thoughts got in my head or why I always think of them only when I'm at the hospital, but for some reason I always do. I feel today would be a good day to share some of those crazy thoughts I have.

1. Whenever I ride the elevators I always...ALWAYS make bets on which one will get there first. I usually only do this with myself. Occasionally when I used to work with another aide named Brandon, we would make actual bets usually involving one of us having to clean the office or some piece of equipment. But now that I don't work with him anymore, I only make bets with myself. Usually the bets are along the lines of "take the trash out today if I lose, take it out tomorrow if I win."
2. There is a doctor who every time I look at him I think "He looks like this guy". No matter how many times I see him, I ALWAYS think that, and I laugh a little to think of him battling it out with a secret agent platypus.
3. On the 1st floor of the hospital just as you come out of the visitor elevators there are 3 photos of close ups of the inside of flowers and every time I see them, I always think they look like women's genitalia. It's very Georgia O'Keefe, but much less subtle and pretty.
4. Whenever I have both pagers on, as stupid and childish as it sounds, I feel like I'm a super important person in the hospital. Even if I don't get a single page on them at all, I feel like at any second I could be paged for something REALLY important and I would have to dash off Grey's Anatomy style and save the day.
5. I kind of always hope that somehow something that happens on ER would happen here at the hospital. How terrible it that? Like I hope that someday while I'm working here, I get taken hostage by a drug seeker. messed up is my mind if I think that???? Or some sort of evacuation due to a fire or something. Of course when I imagine this, NO ONE gets hurt. Everyone ends up happy an healthy in the end. I'm such a weirdo!
6. I like to imagine really bitchy patients/family members in funny generic costumes when they are driving me nuts. The costumes I imagine are as follows: cowboy, cheerleader, gorilla, firefighter, and princess. Both genders are put into these costumes. It is really a treat to imagine my coming-off-the-sauce asshole patient in a princess costume with a hairy chest and a beard.
7. Every time I pass a med room, a clean utility room, or one of the resident on call rooms, I always think about grabbing one of the hotter male nurses (or any good looking male staff member) that populate this hospital and passionately make out with them in said room.
8. Whenever I pass an empty room I have a sincere desire to grab a few prewarmed blankets and take a long nap in the room. I feel like no one would be the wiser even though someone would probably find me out 10 minutes in to the nap and I would be written up/fired.
9. I firmly and truly believe this hospital is haunted. I mean how can it not? SO many people have died here, someone has to still be sticking around to make it a little spooky. The only time I enjoy being here at 6 is on a Saturday when most of the regular clinics are shut down for the weekend and the lights in some of the hallways are off. I like to walk through them and think up tragic stories for the people who have died here. Most of them usually mirror the story of the Haunted Mansion at Disneyland involving a dead husband and a his forlorn suicidal bride.

Anyway, those are my weird thoughts.

Boxes Packed: 4
Bags of Garbage: 1
Days Till Move: 4
Quote of The Day: This

Monday, April 5, 2010

Packing and Cleaning

I started packing my first box for the move last night. It's really heavy and I totally didn't even fill it. It's got all of my framed photographs, which there are A LOT of them. I also should be washing laundryy like a fiend but I just.....don't want to.

I mean for crying out loud, the best of "I love the 80's" is on. Who can compete with that. It's seriously one of my favorite television series. There is nothing that can compare with it.

Moving on, my home teachers came over for one last "home teach" before we move, but basically it was to come see Rachel (which she consitently denies). But it does make me a little sad that the two of them probably won't be coming over to our house anymore. I enjoy those fellas.

Anyway, I'm completley strapped for things to write about now so I'll introduce a new feature that will be going for the next week or so.

Boxes Packed: 1
Bags full of Garbage: 1
Days left till move: 5

Quote of The Day:
"Hank, do you know what the difference is between regular cupcakes and nerdfighter cupcakes? Instead of containing a lot of sugar, nerdfighter cupcakes contain a lot of awesome." John Green

Sunday, April 4, 2010


So TECHNICALLY I've missed the April 4th blog deadline by 40 minutes, but I was with my family for most of the day and have had no time to blog at all. I started my morning with my mom, my sister, and myself wrestling my almost 4 year old neice into eating, dressing, potty-ing, and groom at various intervals. She's gotten into thinking that screaming and crying will get her way, and frankly I'm glad I don't have children right now. I'm too impatient (and still too much of a child myself).

But the Bailey-Axelrod annual get together for Easter was today and has ALWAYS involved the following:
-An adult Easter egg hunt that usually has wrestling, running, fighting, lots of yelling, and attempts to steal each others eggs.
-My mom and my Aunt Paula bringing us our Easter bags to a rousing chorus of "Here Come Peter Cotontail"
-My brother and I getting into some sort of half assed wrestling match, usually ending in him either running away or him pulling the old "my arms are long and if I put my hand on your forehead you can't touch me" move
-Food laced with Matzo (my uncle is Jewish and celebrates Passover)
-Loud laughter
-Lot's of candy due to my Aunt and cousins giving up candy for lent.
-A visit from Califorina living Lisa
-LOTS of food

Anyway, Easter is kind of our holiday. Our family has always done Easter up big. One year we went to Bear Lake for the holiday weekend and celebrated not only the Resurection of Christ, but of the Lord passing over the houses of the Jews and not killing thier firstborn. We were all holed up in a couple of condos and had an AMAZING park wide Easter egg hunt that spanned the entire trailer resort of which we are members. The weather was also GORGEOUS that weekend and a long standing family inside joke of "Cheau Fwa Ham" that is so not how it's spelled.

My family is basically the coolest!

"I'll tell you what then, don't.... step on any butterflies. What have butterflies ever done to you?" -The Doctor (my love)

Saturday, April 3, 2010


So it's mega MEGA cold in the office today. It's been pretty mellow here at work. I've been freaking out a little bit about money considering I had to drop 200 dollars today on a deposit for the Magical House of Wonder and come Monday I will also be dropping first months rent. So I'm gonna have to be a good kid and not spend any money until payday on Wednesday.

Anyway, boring, poorly written first paragraph aside, besides moving to a new place, I'm starting to get really excited about going to Mexico. I was talking to my Dad today about my birthday present from him (he's paying for my surf lessons in Cabo on my actual birthday). So I started thinking about the fun that Rach and I are going to have on this trip and how basically it will be my last vacation until 2012.

Then of course I got thinking about school, which excites and frightens me at the same time. Being an ESFP (still don't know what that is? One of these days I'll talk about Meyers and Brigg, I promise!) I don't really like to think about the future. In fact thinking about my future gives me a little bit of an anexiety attack (REALLY LITTLE, nothing to worry about dear readers). I mean right now, even thinking about moving into this new house is making my skin tingle and my stomach swoop. I mean it's a new palatte for decorating, it's new people, it's new adventures in a new town. It's all the things I LOVE, but since I really don't have a REALLY good idea of all the goings on that might happen (good or bad!) it makes me minimally nauseous.

Quote of the Day:
"The way I see it, if you want rainbows, you gotta put up with the rain" -Dolly Parton

Friday, April 2, 2010


Okay, so we didn't actually get the house, we got two rooms in seriously one of the most gorgeous houses I've ever seen. I felt like I was walking through a celebrities house or I had stumbled on the set of "Cribs". It's so amazing!

Move in will probably happen this weekend, and I'm TOO EXCITED to really form good sentences so yeah, go team!

Quote of the Day:

"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Blog Every Day in April

So last year at the beginning of April, one of my favorite authors Maureen Johnson challenged her blog readers to BEDA (Blog Every Day in April). I've decided to challenge myself to do this again this year. I only got to day 4 last year (typical ESFP of me (more on that later)).

I feel like I'm not a terribly good blog writer and can only write when I have an INTESNE EMOTION (read: angry, usually). Anyway, I need to challenge myself when it comes to blog writing. Go Me!

So anyway, a week ago my landlord came and spoke to my best friend/roommate and told him that he's putting the house we live in up for sale. At first I was DEVASTATED. I've been living in this house for almost a year and a half, it had become my home. I had decorated the living room myself, I had basically put my decrative stamp on the basement here and it feels like my home.

I kind of freaked and started asking around like crazy if people knew where I could live thinking that I would be kicked out of my house like the next day. It didn't end up that way, of course, but since Lynn said he was selling the house, he's been here NON-STOP fixing things. So the last few days I feel like I'm being pushed out of the house, and Rachel agrees.

But there is this great shining light that has shined on us. Rachel was talking to some of her friends and we got news of a GORGEOUS house that we are probably going to move into. Just writing about it is giving me this burst of sparkling optimism that makes me want to do a little dance.

Moving out is a scary thing, I really have a life here. I have friends nearby and a staff of Cafe Rio employee's who basically know me by name, a great ward, and the Empress a stones throw away. But at the same time, I'm SO excited. I feel like this is a really great way to start a fresh page in my life.

I'll keep you updated on the move. The house we are (POSSIBLY) moving into is going to be AMAZING, it has a gorgeously huge balcony, a ginormous backyard, and an all around beautiful look too it. I can't wait to move if it's where we end up!!!!!!

Quote of the day:
"Anyone can be passionate, it takes real lovers to be silly" -Rose Franken

Thursday, March 4, 2010

I suffer from hyper-awesometitis!

So I haven't updated in a little while, so I'll cop out once again and just make a bulleted list of what's going on in my life.

-Rach and I just bough a spiffy cheap chair from the Salvation Army (don't worry, it was basically brand new) and I'm pretty much in love with it, even though it's really easy to fall alseep in. We've also dubbed it the "Makey Outy Chairy." Not because anyone has made out in it, but it would be REALLY easy to make out in because it's really wide and two people could cozily sit in it.
-The Cruise is offically paid off, all that is left is to pay for the plane tickets (and some other random things like tips and on shore excursions) and with the arrival of our passports today, I'm starting to get REALLY excited to go. Especially after I looked at my friend Tedi's pictures from the same cruise.
-My room could be classified as a national disaster area. No seriously, the only way I can get around in there right now is a pretty little walkway between crap piles. Go me.
-OOPS All Berries is back in the store and I bought 3 boxes. Granted, I only bought one box for me. The other two are for my brother. I'm pretty sure he will name his next child after me.
-The Burn Notice season finale is on right now.....SAD!!!!!
-Also, Sunshine? SAD SAD SAD movie. I watched it with the Rachel and she (of course) loved it.
-Guitar Lessons are going really well, except I haven't been to one in two weeks due to a complication last week for me and an incident for Bryce this week.
-I finally have all my little action figures here from various parts of the world, and by parts of the world I mean England and Australia. They are so cute, and I found out that parts of them come off and can be switched around to make REALLY funny Dr. Who action figures.
-On the subject of the Doctor, he comes back to telivision on Easter and once they pick a day of the week to show the show, there will be Doctor Who parties at my house because I think I'm the ony person with the BBC on my tv.
-The growing out of my hair is going well, albeit slowly. I now can put my hair in momstyle pigtails right above my ears, or make a gross pirate-esque ponytail at the nape of my neck.
-I haven't shot pictures in a while and I'm itching to shoot some photos again.
And that, ladies and gents, its all I have to say on the matter. BAM!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Hank's Survey

I really am not sure what to say about this post. I don't want to do an open letters blog, but I'm not feeling exceptionally creative to write a "normal" looking post. I decided to answer some questions that Hank Green usually asks in his annual survey.

1. Your name:
Brittany Kristine Bailey

2. Your Web page:

3 What have you been up to this past year (please be as detailed as possible, because we actually want to know)?
Well I'm lumping in January and February into this "year". I've been living in glorious West Valley City, UT loving my life on my own. I was unemployed for the first time since I was 18 for 4 grueling months untill I got a job at the University of Utah Hospital working in Acute Physical Therapy. I went on a trip to both Yellowstone and Lake Powell this year. I made some amazing friends this year and got an amazingly wonderful roommate named Rachel. I've been going to school at SLCC and learning to play the guitar.

4 How much longer do you think you’ll be doing what you’re doing?
I'll be doing work at a hospital for the rest of my life, and I will always be making friends. I'll hopefully only be at school for two more years. I will travel as much as possible for the rest of my life as well. The guitar will also be a life long journey.

5 Why are you doing it?
College, because I can't move up in the field I want untill I get a degree. Working, because I need the money, but I also adore the work. I love healing people.

6 What do you want to be doing?
I want to be living on a beach in Cabo teaching people how to surf.

7 What’s next in your life?
A trip to mexico for my Birthday, and hopefully a feller fits into the future there somewhere!

8 How You Doin’?
I'm doing pretty awesome

9 What’s the best book you read this year?
I really loved Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, but I also really loved Suite Scarlette

10 Describe a perfect day?
I wake up and I'm suddenly 50 pounds lighter, it's sunny, but not unbearably hot. I walk out of my room to find I'm living in a Cabana in some tropical place 50 feet from the ocean. My closest and beloved friends and family are all there with me and we surf and dance and swim with dolphins. David Tennant walks up declares his undying love for me, and proposes. And the whole thing is catered by my own personal Cafe Rio.

11 Assuming that all things come to an end…how do you think humans will go extinct?
Humans won't go extint. The world is going to end with the 2nd coming of Christ.

12 How are you feeling about kids these days?
I think they are adorable, when they aren't being completly terrible. I'm glad I don't have any right now, but I'm nuts about the ones belonging to my siblings.

13 (- In this space, compose your own question, and answer it -)

14 Ambrozzo tastes better than anything else, what does ambrozzo taste like?
Cafe Rio and Diet Dr. Pepper

15 If you were a cliché, what cliché would you be?
All bets are off

16 What is your least favorite part of any given day?
The part where I have to get up in the morning

17 Do you enjoy science fiction?
I just said I want Daivd Tennant to propose to me. So I'm thinking....YES

18 Cheese or Chocolate?
Chocolate, no wait, cheese! Wait Chocolate.....BOTH

19 Where would you live if you could live anywhere?
Catalina Island, California, Somewhere in Europe, or Surfers Paradise in Austraila

20 What was your first concert?

21 If you could start a business that would be instantly successful, what kind of business would it be?
A clothing store called Limbo that makes tailor fit clothing at reasonable prices. For the women who can't wear a 12 because it's too small but a 14 is too big and sizes are different depending on what brand you wear....either that or a T-shirt buisness that has the wierd things I say printed on it and everyone wants one.

22 Invisibility or Time Travel?
Time Travel, but only if it's in a blue box with a feller who has a certain penchant for a sonic screwdriver. Otherwise, invisibility.

23 What’s wrong with the world?
I think it's a general move towards being more selfish and less caring about other people.

Saturday, January 30, 2010


I was planning to write an actual meaningful blog about my week and the things I've learned this week and things of that sort, but really all I can make my brain do right now is open letters

Dear Plane Tickets,
Why are you so confusing? Why do I have to have all these little factors that go into the price of my ticket. I mean, there is some sort of ticket from Southwest that is 100 dollars each way and it seems like I'm gonna get screwed if I buy these cheap-o tickets.....oh and charging for a checked bag? I'm not okay with that.

Dear Bryce,
I'm really looking forward to becoming as good a guitar player as you, I just wish my hands were a little bit bigger so that I didn't have to stretch as much when I'm playing chords. For your health.

Dear Ozma-
You are a great guitar, I love you and you sound pretty. Here's to making beautiful music.

Dear Josh Duhamel,
You are SO HOT! Seriously, how can you be as good looking as you are and still be a human being? You were SO CUTE in "When In Rome" last night. I suggest your movie to anyone who like cheesy chick flicks.

Dear Life,
Can you throw my girl Rachel a bone already? She likes this guy, and I want him to like her back. I want her sense of wonderment and love of magic to come back to her body! Plus I want to do the "I Told You So, You Finally Weren't Right About Everything" dance.

Dear Meat Locker Office,
WTH is wrong with you.

Dear Netflix,
Why did I postpone bringing you into my life for so long??? You are FABULOUS!

Dear Males,
Did you not get the memo? I'm on a boy lite diet right now. I'm focusing on school/work, not wanting to date and not pining for a boyfriend. Leave me alone!!!

Dear Hormones,
That goes double for you. Leave me the crap alone.

Dear Beautiful Couple,
You two were so heartbreakingly adorable yesterday. I'm aware you both were devastated by the impending loss your family will suffer, but you brought me hope for my own life. Hope that someday, I'll find a man to hold me like that while I cry. God Bless you in your struggle.

Dear Fingernail,
I went 2 weeks without biting you, and now I've bit you down too far.....CURSE YOU

Dear Juila Nunes,
Thank you for being such a beautiful songwriter and writing songs that are basically about me. Without the song "Indecisive" I would be lost thinking I'm the most idiotic girl in the entire world. You are pretty and so is your music.

Dear Saturday Schedule,
Basically you suck, we NEVER need two aides in the morning and we ALWAYS need two in the afternoon. Why why WHY do we have the exact opposite of what we need on Saturdays?

Dear Hair,
Grow faster!

Dear Crazy Flamboyant Nurse,
I love you, way to be a bright shiny spot on a grumptacular day.

Dear My Band of Big Brothers,
Ahhhhh cursed co-workers, I love the lot of you, as much as you drive me nuts with your incessant teasing. Seriously though, could ONE of you be serious for 3 seconds?

Dear Doctor,
Glad to have you back in my home, I've been missing you. "You're thick and so is your dad"

Dear Rachel,
I LOVE our long strange conversations in British. It makes me happy. (Heart) you!

Dear Callouses,
I love you sooooo much, you make me feel like I'm now a part of a really cool club.

slightly grumpily yours,

Friday, January 8, 2010

Basically 14 out of 24 done!

So with the New Year, I'm not only looking at my resolutions, but I just looked at my list of 24 things to do before I'm 24. Here's our recap.

1. Lose 50 Pounds
*working on it!
2. Sing With a Band
*also working on it
3. Learn A New Language
*again, working on it.
4. Skinny Dip
5. Run a Whole Mile without stopping
*I'm actually changing this one to swim a mile without stopping because running is bad for my knee and I'm working on that.
6. Write and Compose a Song
*Lyrics are written, still haven't written the music
7. Dye my hair every natural color (black, brown, blonde, red) at least once
*Done, Done, Done, and Done.
8. Learn to play "All Of Me" by John Schmidt
9. Learn all of the music from Dr. Horrible on piano
*Working on it!
10. Make a kick-ass Halloween Costume
*Rainbow Bright and it was AWESOME
11. Have a slip-n-slide party
*gonna have to wait for it warm up
12. Beat The NES Batman game I got for my birthday today
*Finished it 2 weeks after I got it
13. Pass Anatomy
*Crossing my fingers on this one
14. Re-Visit my ancestral home, Los Angeles
*May 23, it's happening
15. Learn to knit a beanie
*Halfway there!
16. Cut my hair into a pixie cut
*Done, done, done and DONE!!!
17. Grab a couple of people and go for a one day road trip to somewhere I've never been in Utah
*I NEED to do this, adventures are always fun.
18. Visit a REAL haunted house/building
*Done and it was FAB
19. Play blackjack in the MGM Grand
*This one I'm amending as well, I'm going to do it on the Cruise ship.
20. Kiss someone at midnight on New Years
*Does my turtle count?
21. Own at least one bra from Victoria's secret
*Got a gift card, and one of these days I'm getting my butt over there, I'm also changing this to just own some non-lotion item from VS, bra's in my size are too expensive.
22. See Blink-182 on September 7th
23. Audition for a production
*I did, and I'm now on a great improv team!
24. Have and artist draw/paint/photograph me
*Done, a beautiful sketch by Manelle.

So, I still have a lot of work left to do but it's gonna happen!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Reflective Blog.

As part of my New Year's Resolution I promised that I would keep my blog up better, and that also means better quality blogging. I'm only 7 days into the New Year and so far I've been making good on my promises. I've been working out, trying to watch what I eat, stay away from temptation (curse you Village Inn!). I've been looking for patience. All those things.

Although, people have been (privately) asking me about my resolution about being kinder to myself. In fact a friend at work and I were speaking about it. She couldn't believe that I had made that a resolution and she wanted an explanation. Here it be.

I guess I would need to explain how my mind works. Wait....there is no way I could explain that in blog. It would have to be a textbook with sections and diagrams and all sorts of things. Let me explain how my inner voice works. Everyone has an "inner voice". It's the thing that reminds to you brush your teeth, stand up straight, and that the things you do may or may not be inappropriate for the current situation.

My inner voice though, it's well....hmm. The best way I could describe it is a small elf like thing that roams around in my brain. This is not a kind elf. In fact, you could say that my inner voice is the MOST unkind, cruel elf in the entire world. I do not have a kind inner voice, and like me, my inner voice does not shut up. Seriously, when I'm having a conversation with someone, or doing something (like acting onstage, flirting with a boy, or trying to do laundry) my inner voice cuts down how I do it into little tiny pieces and stomps on it like a bug.

Now I'm sure, most people have inner voices similar to mine, the problem is, I listen too mine nine times out of ten. I take pretty much everything that my inner voice says as cold hard solid fact. I try not to ever show that on the out side.

Confused? I know I am, the best way I can equate it is that my whole being, who I am what I do, where I go is like a castle wall. On the outside is me, just regular old me. On the inside is my inner voice, with a sledge hammer. Every time that my inner voice trashes the wall from the inside, outside me not only tries to fix the holes, but also makes the wall that much bigger so that the holes aren't as noticeable. The problem is, outside me has to work very fast so it's shoddy workmanship, but you only know that if you poke at the wall. People rarely poke the wall because it's so big and they aren't focusing on one little thing, they are just overtaken by the enormity of the wall. They don't notice the holes and they don't notice the crappy workmanship.

So tonight on my drive home from Jesters workshop (not going to Village Inn, too many food temptations!) I started to tell off my inner voice. Basically telling it to go to hell, that I could care less what it thinks and that I don't need it making assumptions and decisions about my life. My inner voice of course, told me to go to hell right back and that she wasn't going anywhere. She also said some very cruel things (like she usually does) to make me back down. It will be a lot of hard work and it will take a chunk of my time, but I will detach her from me. I will stop believing her.

I tell you this not to make you feel sorry for me, dear readers. Nor do I tell you this so that you can compliment me out the wahzoo. I tell you this so that I will have to accept responsibility in being kinder to myself.

So keep watching this next year as I take down the ultimate villain.....THE INNER VOICE!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

On this day.....

24 years ago, a beautiful woman was born. She passed away on July 12th this year (okay actually last year). I miss her a lot. She was a wonderful, supportive, fantastic friend. Little things every day remind me she's always nearby, things I see that make me smile and think of her.
I'm not sad anymore that she's gone, I know she is happy and finally healthy and out of pain. I know she's doing an amazing work for Heavenly Father, and she's a beautiful reminder to be a better person every day.

As such, I've been reflecting on what I need to do this year to become a better person. I mean yes, it's also the new year and that makes everyone reflect and I'm going to make some REASONABLE resolutions.

1. (The Obvious One) Get healthy, lose weight, and exercise more.
2. Read my scriptures more diligently
3. Become more kind to myself
4. Look for more experiences to become a more patient woman
5. Just as I ask others to accept me for who I am, I need to accept them they way they are.
6. Take every opportunity that I can to take pictures.
7. Keep my blog updated better, and not just open letter blogs, they are the easy way out.