Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Troubled Heart

I have found myself very troubled lately. It's actually something that has been plaguing me for quite some time. For the most part, I've kept it on the down low for the sake of not starting any arguments with anyone (I am a pacifist after all). But I feel now, after all this time, I should say something.

I support Gay Marriage.

I know that in being a member of the LDS church, this contradicts the church. But I just can't seem to see how alienating a population of the world is Christlike. I firmly believe in the principles and beliefs of the church, and I apply as much obedience to the commandments as I can (I'm not perfect, and guess what reader? neither are you). But I can't and refuse to agree with the church on this.

This is going to anger some of you readers probably, but I don't believe being gay is a choice. I believe you are what you are, and that's the way God made you. I know, I know in the bible it says homosexuality is a sin. I know! But sometimes, things don't make sense and everything is a fiber on the greater fabric that is believing in God. I think that there are some things in this world that I will never understand and the whole choosing/not choosing to be gay is one of them.

I understand that in saying that, some of you will think I'm rationalizing something away, but it's how I feel and trying to fight me on how I feel will get you nowhere. This isn't a post where I'm looking to fight with anyone or even engage in a debate. This is a post for me to say what I feel.

The way I've lived my life since I started making decisions for my own life and my own beliefs has always been and will always be to treat everyone in a Christlike manner. Don't get me wrong, I don't ALWAYS adhere to that, there are times I'm a great big jerk, in fact in one particular instance I'm ALWAYS a jerk. I'm really mean about a crazy girl in my school program, and I know I should work on it. But I feel that overall, I try to look at everyone with Christlike eyes.

I try to see everyone for the person that God created them as and find a reason why they are in my life. I love everyone for who they are and what they do for me and how they affect me, not because of their life choices. Just because I don't agree with their life choices doesn't mean that I have the right to be mean/cruel/unfair/rude/disrespectful to them. I don't have the right to make any sort of comment or judgment on their lives just as I would hope that they won't make judgments or comments on my life. Understand this though, I'm not an idle sitter by-er (oh hello Grammar, I forgot you existed!) If someone is downing something I believe in, you better believe I put them in their place.

In a perfect world, people would look at everyone the way Christ looks at the whole world and recognize we are all people and we are all children of God and we are all connected. My only consolation is that the people who treat others UnChristlike will get their retribution. God will punish those who didn't treat others with a Christlike love and hurt and were cruel to those they refused to love.

The way I see it, everyone has their demons. Everyone has something in their life that they are ashamed of. So if you are one of those people who don't have anything to be ashamed of or any demons, well then pick up your stone and you can throw it at me for supporting the gays. I'll stand firm where I am.
Batman Out.

QOTD "I know who is in charge up there, I don't know what is going to happen, but I'm pretty sure EVERYONE will be surprised." -Robert Kirby.


Emily said...

I've felt this tight, angry knot in my chest all week over this topic. It's so frustrating. It's good to hear some people within the LDS have some sense over this! I keep seeing people say how proud they are about the remarks made last weekend. I just don't get it. I understand that those are important people to them and that they want to support them with all their hearts. But how can they be proud of someone standing up and spouting out inaccurate and very harmful information to millions of people... many of whom are so devoted they will believe whatever they say? I have two gay cousins. I think about their very devoted LDS parents and how terrible they must feel hearing this over and over. They didn't do anything wrong, and yet their sons wound up gay. I think about the ex-wife and daughter of the cousin who tried his best to "change" and married a woman, and just couldn't do it. I think about all the teens out there who already have it hard enough, then hear this and realize the people they care about aren't on their side. It's crap and it has to stop.

Keith said...

I found your blog because of the posts you wrote on Lovingdoubt's channel (the atheist). I used to be a believer too and this one issue is one that I abandoned when I was a believer (although not LDS). There just didn't seem to be any rational justification outside of my own belief system for opposing gay marriage. It is great that the younger generations are changing religions to be more tolerant, just like they finally did for slavery and racism years back...