Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Get some popcorn folks, it's gonna be a long one.

I'm pretty much opposed to starting blogs with apologies about how long it's been since I've posted and listing reasons why I haven't blogged in a while. So I'm not going to do that. I'll just catch you up on my life and you can guess which parts prevented me from blogging.

I finished my first semester of my program (1 down 4 to go!). I've never felt so excited to learn and so MOTIVATED to learn in my entire life. I guess that's what interesting well taught content can do for you right? I passed all my classes with A's (except math...stupid b+!) and even did pretty good on my finals. But I gotta say, they took up a LARGE amount of my time the last week of November and the first two weeks of December. I barely had time to shower. I actually didn't buy groceries the last month of school, so you can see why I didn't have time to blog.

In other news, I just realized I haven't properly celebrated the fact that I will never have to take Math EVER AGAIN! So please oblige me a second or two....YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

Anyway, we also had Christmas come upon us and I was at my mom's house for a good 4 days. I couldn't drag myself away from the festivities long enough to blog about anything. But I got some cool stuff for Christmas. My mom got me a really nice point and shoot camera, which I asked for because as much as I love Reid, he's kind of bulky and if I want to take a small purse somewhere (or no purse at all) I can't just put him in a tiny purse or shove him in my pocket. I also got a oil change and a tire rotation from my dad, not exactly the stuff of Christmas, but I really needed it. A TARDIS cookie jar from my brother, a nifty skirt from my sister, a Polaroid camera from a close family friend, a cute thermal top from Lisa, and a pair of ADORABLE gloves and a Justin Bieber calendar from Rachel. I also got some fun trinkets and knicknacks from my grandma tuff and some dinero from my grandparents. All in all it was a really great holiday spent with people I love.

Between finals and Christmas I also suffered some pretty bad heartache. I think I put off writing about it so long because I was worried I'd write unkind and untrue things in my post breakup haze. I bear no ill will, the reasons (which I won't discuss here) that ended our relationship were pretty legit reasons and now looking back I can see that it could have been much worse. There were pitfalls that would inevitably be down the road that one NEVER see coming in a happy glow of being in love. Those pitfalls probably would have destroyed any respect or civility we would have had for each other and that would make for a very difficult time at school, for the both of us.

It was hard to know where to go from there with so many plans and so many hopes being crushed, but now, in the aftermath my heart still aches, but most of the major cracks, bumps and bruises have been sealed up or healed. I no longer spontaneously tear up when I see things that remind me of what I had, I'm finding the magic that can come from changing plans. I've found a quote that I love "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us"-Joseph Campbell. It's kind of become my mantra.

Finding a new path on your own is such a painful yet beautiful experience. Frankly, it's an experience that I wouldn't miss for the world. So on to bigger and better things. I'm looking forward to learning more in 2011, looking forward to meeting new people and getting new opportunities everyday.

So I'll leave you with this


Lisa said...

I've been waiting for you to post! Although I'm shocked to hear about the breakup :( I'm always here if you need to talk! I move to Salt Lake in a week! :D

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Heidi said...

I love you Britt!